i have this horrible tendency of pushing people away. the lifespan is always different, but as time wears on it seems everyone grows tired of me. i am not oblivious to the reasons why. but is it really so much to simply expect those you place faith in to be… magnificent? perfection may not be the axiom of existance, but it is certainly a valiant pursuit.
all that aside, i just wish there was someone i could still call friend.